WAITING...WONDERING...WORRYING

Now that I have officially reached full-term (37 weeks), we just get to play the waiting, wondering and worrying game (NOT my idea of a fun game). Is it going to happen today? Tomorrow? Two weeks from now? Will my water break right at the beginning of labor like it did last time or will I have to rely on timing contractions to know when to go to the hospital? Will I end up having to be induced? Will my labor really be about 50% shorter than it was last time like "They" say the 2nd time should be? (That would make it less than 4 hours which means I better get to the hospital FAST!) Is the baby in the right position? How big is it? Is it a boy or a girl? What are we going to name him/her? Why doesn't my OB give routine 3rd trimester ultrasounds? Will I get to have a natural birth like I did with Faith? Can I get through this one without an epidural? Do I even want to try? What are we going to do with Faith if I go into labor in the middle of the night or when I can't get a hold of anyone to watch her?

As you can tell, my mind is FULL of questions and worry. I don't even think that I worried this much the first time...of course I didn't have another child to worry about, I had an ultrasound almost every month so I got to "peek" in on Faith regularly and we knew she was a girl and that her name would be Faith from very early on (I know, I know...it was MY choice not to find out).

Don't get me wrong, I am SUPER EXCITED beyond words to get to see and hold and cuddle and kiss this little kicking machine, but the anxiety, dread not knowing what is going to happen, and exhaustion have temporarily taken over... I just have to remember to keep my eye on the prize :o)

Dang it sucks that I can't take Xanax while prego ;o)